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May 3rd, 2025

Helped my sister with her math homework. She was actually using one of these to multiply!

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May 2nd, 2025

Saw a cute giraffe plushie on the subway with a friend.

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May 1st, 2025

Watched Sinners with some friends.

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May 3rd, 2025. 10:49PM ★— The end of April really snuck up on me. To be honest, I still can't believe it's over. I can't believe it's May. I can't believe I held on. And I can't believe it's a little blah. I felt very alive when the semester ended. Maybe a bit too much. I drew a lot and was losing sight of anything else. But I've been frolicking lots these past days and haven't drawn at all, and now I'm a bit scared to return to the one thing that might give me a purpose. Because... It can be soooooo boring! I'm starting to get crazy voices in my head telling me to do something crazy. Nothing specifically, just the usual "just to feel something" "chasing a feeling" feelings. I've been in such a weird place all week. I think that's what the absence of a routine can do during the summer months. I thought the days were blending into each other in college, but this is a whole other fish. I'm hopeful, but I'm blah and I'm nothing. I'm in a drone like state. My zest for life has been ZESTED out of me. I'm almost reconsidering my friend's proposal of making a Hinge. Just for the eventfulness of it. But I have no photos and I have no self. But what else can I dooooooo? I smile, evilly.

This monthly playlist was the most Chinese it's ever been! I wasn't planning to write them out fully ever again, but I'll do it this time just to show off. And to notate... :p Also I feel like having two distinct top songs in January and February was a fluke. I'm caring less and less and less! But I'll put something down. I mean I really like these, I like all these songs, they're all awesomeness.

1. 50 Seconds From Now - 田原(Tian Yuan) ⋆ From the same album as the last song of March!
2. 美好的原點(Beautiful Origin) - 林嘉欣(Karena Lam)
3. 相愛的歌(Love Song) - 阿朵(Aduo)
4. 从A到Z(From A to Z) - 张醒婵(Zhang Xingchan) ⋆ Also technically from March but didn't feel March enough.
5. 当站在大海面前(Superwave) - Fishdoll
6. DYING - 蘇慧倫(Tarcy Su) ⋆ Like yes I'm also dying.
7. 界限症(Limit Disease) - Instinct of Sight ⋆ I FINALLY found a Chinese metal band that I like because I'm so picky with this genre. And actually maybe so picky in general. I posted about this before, but this song vaguely reminds me of the Watamote opening which makes me feel nostalgic. Specifically the end!
8. 中国小姐姐(Chinese Sister) - 黄龄, 孟楠(Huang Ling, Meng Nan)
⋆ I found out this song was dropping through this reel by my goat. Like WHAAATT ? At this point, it wasn't on Spotify or Youtube or anything yet but I was able to stream it on QQ Music. The music video is also on Bilibili! I loooveee the outfits in this T.T I found some more pictures of them on Xiaohongshu.
9. Tonight - PinkPantheress ⋆ THE SONG CREDITS.
10. 天生傲鼓(Born to be Proud of the Drum) - 阿朵(Aduo)
11. 小雨(Light Rain) - 黄龄(Huang Ling) ⋆ Got stuck in my head after listening to a live performance.
12. Stateside - PinkPantheress
13. 如果沒遇見你(If I Hadn't Met You) - 雅立(Arie)
14. 小屁孩兒(The Wimpy Kid) - 韓紅(Han Hong) ⋆ OMG I'm so obsessed with the middle section of this song. But there's no other music in his discography that's remotely like that so I searched up who produced it, 金武嶙(Jin Wulin), and he hasn't made anything like that either!!!! WHAT WAS THAT I put together a playlist of the songs he's produced by I only really like this one and 流浪的紅舞鞋(The Wanderer's Red Dancing Shoes) (which I only really kind of like).
15. 流浪的紅舞鞋(The Wanderer's Red Dancing Shoes) - 王菲(Faye Wong) ⋆ Actually this is kind of maybe controversial but I don't like ANY 王菲(Faye Wong) songs even though, some might say, she something like Chinese Beyoncé. So I'm glad I found one I like! Also shoutout to the cutieful William Beckett playlist cover from oomf



16. 河(River) - 彭靖惠(PENG CHING HUI) ⋆ Found on my walk home. So emotional! Also like the album cover.
17. Talk - Lucy Dacus ⋆ A friend recommended the album and I actually can't with this song OMG. It's sooo saaaadddd T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T I like it it kind of reminds me of Mitski.

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April 30th, 2025

Went to High Park for plein airpril! It was so chillaaayyyyyy!

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May 4th, 2025. 1:26AM ★— April

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April 29th, 2025

I used a can at my roommates house as a stand for my iPad.

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April 28th, 2025

I voted for the first time!

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April 27th, 2025

Watched the 4th year film screening with some friends.

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April 26th, 2025

Went to the club with my roommate and got lost in the fog.

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April 25th, 2025

Drew Patrick Stump as a seal.

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April 24th, 2025

Went to 4th year industry day with some friends.

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April 23rd, 2025

Asked my orthodontist to make the fake teeth in my retainer even shorter but he talked me out of it.

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April 22nd, 2025

Went to the R.O.M. with some friends and got hooked on seashells.

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May 3rd, 2025. 4:44PM ★— I wont go into too much detail on the specifics of the trip lest I give away any critically personal information on the internet. But I went to the R.O.M. with some school friends to draawwwww!!! Was a little bit confused on what we'd be drawing there so my plan was really to just draw the people drawing. And I did that sort of, but I also got very capitvated by the seashells and bugs. There was a small corner with both. I've actually always wanted to go to the R.O.M. for the bugs, scared of them in real life but OBSESSED with them in theory. Though I had never fully considered the aesthetic potential of seashells. I've been trying to stay away from ocean imagery really as I don't know anything about the ocean. However, upon taking a closer and closer look at this massive shell, I became so entranced. Patterns within patterns! I will decidedly be looking into this further...

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April 21st, 2025

Wrote and performed two puppet shows with my sister.

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April 20th, 2025

Egg fights with my family for Easter. It's probably not what you think. Also happy 4/20!

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April 28, 2025. 7:26PM ★— I don't know if this is like a slavic thing or if literally everyone does this. But everyone takes a hard boiled egg and you take turns beating them agaist the other persons egg. And whoevers egg doesn't crack wins!

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April 19th, 2025

Discussed favourite ice cream flavours with my sister over breakfast and, later on, ate some ice cream.

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April 18th, 2025

Moved out of residence!

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April 28, 2025. 7:22PM ★— I quite liked living in residence, and I'll miss having my own space like this with a view of the campus. There was so much more room to put my 1 million belongings! I made sure to take copious amounts of pics.

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April 17th, 2025

Went to the 3rd year film screening. So many amazing films!! I think On the Line is my favourite.

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April 16th, 2025

I took out the trash — metaphorically and physically.

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April 28, 2025. 7:16PM ★— I FINISHED THE SEMESTER!!!!! And then I took out our trash and compost. I actually technically sort of finished early which I'm so happy about. The second semester was sooooo much more chill than the first. The last couple assignmemts were so like drone work like nothing I was obsessed. As I got closer and closer to the end, ticking off each assignment felt like taking out the trash. Like I was scraping gunk off my BRAIN! And then I had to take out some crazy real trash. I bagged the compost this time because it was going in the dumpster, and when I dumped it in the plastic bag a GREEN MIST FLOATED AWAY after the impact. IT'S REAL!!! IT DOES THAT IN REAL LIFE!!!!!

I can say this now, since we're no longer in residence. And they can't do anything to us. I think. But over the past couple months, my roommate and I had built up a humble collection of oil jars. We'd always meant to dispose of them, but really who was going to do that. And now it was the end of the semester and they were still there, mysteriously under our common room table. Since I was going to the dumpster I thought I might as well take them. Though I couldn't just lug glass jars of OIL through the residence lobby. What if people started asking questions. What if it WASN'T too late to kick us out, two days before our move out slots.

I devised a stratgey for this reverse heist. I would put the jars in a plastic bag, and put the plastic bag in one of those reusable Walmart bags. This would minimize the glass clanking sound and conceal the vague shape of the jars. Once I'd get to the dumpster, I'd take the plastic bag out of the reusable bag, yeet the contraband, put the reusable bag in my pocket, and walk back to our room like nothing happened. Which is basically what I did.

When I was packing the Walmart bag with glass jars, I also remembered our broken butter dish from January 21st. We'd put the glass shards in a plastic bag that'd been sitting under the sink since the incident. What better time to deal with that? So that went in too. And among these things, under the arm carrying this bag of goods, I hulled some cardboard panels from our Drake project.

I was standing in the elevator minding my own business when I felt something hit my knee. Whatever it didn't really feel like anything. I think it was the bag swinging from my hand. And then I got to the ground floor and felt something wet at the bottom of my leg. Was it compost juice (you know, compost juice.)? But it couldn't be, I had already taken out the compost. Was it the oil? FROM THE JAR there was no way it could escape that. I was really so confused until I got to the lobby exit and realized what it was. I looked down and had two red stains on my cargos — one on my knee and one near my ankle

At the dumpster, I lifted up the blue reusable bag to get a closer look. A small shard of glass poked through the bottom. I couldn't believe it! Through the plastic, the resuable bag, my pants, and my skin. I disposed of the contents and pulled up my pantleg to inspect the damage. It was true... A giant cut on my knee (not that giant)! Wider than I had even seen. Like okay whatever I guess. I walked back our room like nothing happened, my left leg getting wetter by the second.

I found a bandaid in my room — with the CN Tower on it, by the way — and took it to the bathroom. There's a first aid kit under the bathroom sink in residence and I used a rubbing alcohol spray from that. There's so many things in there, it even has tylenol! I cleaned my pathetic little cut, bandaged it, and that's when I decided it was time to take a break from trash disposal. I drew furry art for the next 8 hours.

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April 15th, 2025

After seeing Heathers the other day, a friend was listening to the musical's soundtrack. Can't we be 17? At 17?

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April 28, 2025. 7:10PM ★— Okay this one's kind of evil

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April 14th, 2025

Sent some moldy mail to a moldy friend on an especially moldy day.

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April 13th, 2025

Happy anniversary to this neocities site! And to a very special comic...

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April 12th, 2025

Concieved of an alter ego for a classmate with some friends (unbeknownst to said classmate).

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April 11th, 2025

A friend animated something spooky coming out of a T.V.

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April 10th, 2025

A friend drew Jinshi from The Apothecary Diaries in Life Drawing class. No, he wasn't there.

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April 9th, 2025

I finished my sculpture of the Millennium Snake, with its many Millennium Millipedes circling around.

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April 28, 2025. 7:02PM ★— My whole day was centered around this one snake so I really wanted to use the snake emoji BUT I'VE ALREADY USED IT! I was debating doing my FIRST EMOJI REPEAT But then I googled how many emojis there actually are and there's like ONE MILLION (hyperbole)! So I was like I've gotta try harder than that to keep up this streak.... So that's for the millipedes on the snake (which are really only millipedes theoretically).

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April 8th, 2025

An area of our campus was recently renovated to look 1 million times worse than it did before. Some have described the new look as a "hospital cafeteria".

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April 7th, 2025

Went on a walk with a friend and they let me wear their coat.

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April 6th, 2025

Listened to Nuked Out Dance Party by Dj Smokey with some friends.

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April 5th, 2025

Went to the Zoo for a school trip. Even more traumatizing than the last one. I split a BeaverTail with my roommate to make up for it.

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April 4th, 2025

Drew Eckels from A Sound of Thunder for my Futuristic Narritaves elective.

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April 28, 2025. 6:57PM ★—

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April 3rd, 2025

A friend drew emo Sonny Moore fanart after we streamed his new album.

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April 2nd, 2025

Found a mysterious, unexplained 6 of clubs on a windowsill.

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April 28th, 2025. 6:51PM ★—

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April 1st, 2025

Went to Story Lecture for the first time in months. Watched this clip of Woody falling through an ace of spades.

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April 25th, 2025. 5:40PM ★— Hi. It's been a month since my last update! So here I am hi. I don't even really remember what I did in March, but I do remember it being pretty eventful. Looking back on my playlist, it feels so long ago! Such a different and distinct vibe from the vibe now. Such different feelings and memories. Especially since I was in a completely different part of the province than I am now! I'm sitting in the library with my roommate like we used to do, working on our evil schemes. Finally summer break! And too much to do... But I'm so happy and hopeful about it.

To talk more about March, I don't think I'll break down the playlist in the same way as I did last time, but I will notate some of the songs for fun ^_<~! Also I don't have as strong of a connection to the top two I chose this time. To be honest, I kind of just wanted to keep the trend up. Nonetheless, these songs are very emotional and very Maarcchhhh.

1. Kremlin Dusk - Hiakru Utada ⋆ I actually saved this song at the very end of February because it already felt so March. So bittersweet. I've been dipping into that feeling a lot.
5. Help I'm Alive - Metric ⋆ From my roommate.
6. Chocolate - Kylie Minogue, A Guevara ⋆ From a friend's playlist.
7. webgirl - Zemfira ⋆ A friend's recommendation! I don't listen to any Russian music like ever because it's kind of so jumpscare, but this song is really nice.
11. Dark Thoughts - Lil Tecca ⋆ One of the best songs you can play over the SHINee "Everybody" music video (but the best one is All My Ladies by Baauer GO AND DO IT RIGHT NOW I'M NOT JOKING AROUND).
15. 听缘切寺时我在你身后(I Was Behind You When I Heard Enkiri Temple) - 张醒婵(Zhang Xingchan) ⋆ Found this album during an all nighter. Some of the tracks sound like the jazz metal bands I was listening to last year which is SO AWESOME!!! I've been praying for something like this...
16. Full Circle - Movements ⋆ A friend was going to their live concert, so I thought I'd check them out.
17. Smile In Your Sleep - Silverstein ⋆ From a friend's Instagram story.
18. 真的傻(Foolish Love) - 晨悠(CHENYO) ⋆ A friend's recommendation :3

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March 31st, 2025

Watched Lost and Found (2008) in animation history.

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April 25th, 2025. 5:33PM ★— March

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March 30th, 2025

Made a buuuuuuunch of dumplings (okay, not that many).

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March 29th, 2025

Me and my friends worked on our cat walk cycles infront of a waaaarm campfire.

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March 28th, 2025

Went to my friends' Life Drawing class and our professor showed originals from children's books he illustrated.

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March 27th, 2025

Printed out some Pete Wentz mementos for our favourite classroom corkboard.

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March 29th, 2025. 12:36AM ★— I pulled another all nighter this day to finished my evil character assignment. I needed to finish it by my professors next class so I could give him my physical copy. Which I did! Epic yay and win! But I was so tired I ended up going back to the dorm and napping through my figure drawing class. When I woke up I went back to the labs and was greated with these wonderful creations on my friend's cintiq.

Coloured printing was the easy part. The real challenge was finding a single pair of scissors in the animation wing (we failed). My roommate ended up cutting him out with our friend's box cutter, which was also pretty challenging. That's why it looks like mikey way himself took a giant bite of the paper.

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March 26th, 2025

My roommate and I found an additional roommate.

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March 25th, 2025

All nighter. Bed bug inspection. Running from bed bug inspectors. Laundry. Floor nap. Exhaustion.

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March 24th, 2025

My roommate and I slept through animation history. APPARENTLY THEY WATCHED ONE HOUR OF AKIRA!

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March 23rd, 2025

My roommate and I slept through our college's open house. Apparently a lot happened.

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March 22nd, 2025

Watched The Iron Giant (1999) and read Robo-rotica (2015) for my Futuristic Narritaves elective.

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March 21st, 2025

Went to the bar across the street with some friends and they both ordered the french onion soup. I tried some, it tasted like fen chiew!

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March 20th, 2025

My roommate submitted their storyboard assignment. Never draw!

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March 19th, 2025

Saw a French person (my friend's professor).

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March 18th, 2025

Created a new account with friends for kpop fanart posting. Mostly Minho.

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March 17th, 2025

Happy St. Patrick's Day and a lucky friendship anniversary!

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March 16th, 2025

A friend bought some cat themed playing cards from Dollarama.

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March 20th, 2025. 1:59AM ★— So many great things! An improved drink order, ~3(?) toynbee tiles, and a predicted rainbow. After the train ride home, I went to the asian grocery store near ("near") our campus for the first time. 5 million stars. Rice spinach and dumplings. My roommate and I pinned a Minho photocard to our favourite classroom cork board. We got the text from a left over easter egg hunt egg in our dorm.



If you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely~~~

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March 15th, 2025

Went to the Murray McKay (1944 - 2024) exhibit with some friends.

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March 20th, 2025. 1:40AM ★— It was a collection of works featuring the recently deceased life drawing model Murray McKay. Our life drawing professor (who was also in it) told us about the exhibit and I went with some college friends. I reaaalllly really love figure drawing and it was so cool to see all the different approaches by all the different artists there. We saw some other life drawing models attending the show as well! Life drawing is such a great thing, rest in piece Murray.

A theme within the show that really resonated with me was the relationship between the model and the artist. The passages in the show explain it better:

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March 14th, 2025

13 years ago today, Jonghyun made history...

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March 12th, 2025. 2:30AM ★— Click on the gif for the full experience.

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March 13th, 2025

We did caricatures in life drawing class and my professor drew ME! My friends said I look like one of the beatles.

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March 15th, 2025. 12:06AM ★—

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March 12th, 2025

I drew a bird's nest for my diagonal pan. Inside is a bird wearing a beanie, inspired by one of my professors. I like to think it's him.

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March 15th, 2025. 12:04AM ★—

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March 11th, 2025

I drew 1 million babies.

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March 12th, 2025. 2:30AM ★— Babymania.

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March 10th, 2025

Watched Ёжик в Тумане (1975) in animation history.

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March 9th, 2025

A friend drew me and my roommate for their assignment! Now it's my profile picture (and Pete is theirs :3)!

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March 12th, 2025. 2:04AM ★— They asked if they could colour Pete and make it their profile picture and I was like YAYYYY! And then I decided to make their drawing mine as well because I was getting sick of mine and the black and white matches my highlights and it's so so cute!

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March 8th, 2025

I drew Petekey yuri for class.

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March 12th, 2025. 1:37AM ★— Used to say "I drew Petekey yaoi for class." but I can't not see them as girls! ... Based off Pete's live journal entry about the new mexico sunet.

The assignment was to draw a couple layouts based off this rough storyboard and style sheet. In the storyboard, one of the characters goes over to a computer and then they talk. So the story behind this is that Mikey Way from My Chemical Romance has found out about Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy's live journal through the grape vine and Pete is super shy and embarassed about this because he's been writing gay fanfiction of them in secret (this happened in real life) (see image below).



And Pete's like "gaaaahhhhhhhhh don't look at that haha don't look at thatDON'T LOOK AT THAT!..". But then Mikey is like it's okay... I like queerbaiting too. Let's make a bunch of money TOGETHER ♥

I'm not gonna post all the panels because well it's actually really bad but here's a taste here's a picture here's a painting.

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March 7th, 2025

My best friend came to visit during Zine Zone (wearing the coolest outfit ever)!

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March 9th, 2025. 1:53AM ★— Had such a CRAZY FRIDAY (March 7th)! My best friend came to visit from America!!! And so did a friend that goes to another school!! And it was ZINE ZONE!!! #SoThatHappened. I wish they could've stayed longer though!! Heartbroken emoji... WE NEED TO TALK MORE AND SEE EACH OTHER MORE But the evil universe is keeping us away from each other physically. Bought a bunch of new prints and stickers and Other Secret things... In the process of re-curating my print wall. I started the night of zine zone but it's been taking so long I'm still not finished! I kind of peaked already with my previous curation so it's been a bit difficult to reorganize in an improvingly pleasing and satisfying way. I bought a couple more black prints, but also some green and orange ones—I think I need to restructure the flow completely! But it's still so exciting.

Also something so devastating I found out about yesterday that I wanted to write about. I recently came upon a song called 無核(No Seeds) by 盧凱彤(Ellen Joyce Loo) that I added to my playlist a while ago. Yesterday I was going through her discography and listening to more of her music, and I was wondering why her last album came out in 2019. I wondered if it was just Spotify but I checked QQ and it said the same thing. So I decided to Google her and see what she was up to now. She died August 5th, 2018 at the age of 32. It was an apparent suicide, footage of her falling off a building but no note. I found out the cause later in her Wikipedia, but before that, I also found out that she was born in Toronto and a lesbian and married to 余静萍(Yu Jing Pin).

She was also in a duo called at17. I listened to some of their music last year, so I was surprised to find out she was part of it. I checked out their Wikipedia as well, and it quelled my curiosity about their name.



Of course I then listened to At Seventeen by Janis Ian and it was just that. I don't know. It's just all so unfortunate. I've been thinking about it recently. I just can't believe it.

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March 6th, 2025

My roommate devised big plans for this Minho SHINee breastfeeding pic.

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March 7th, 2025. 12:50AM ★—

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March 5th, 2025

My roommate messaged their twitter mutual for the first time.

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March 4th, 2025

Got a donation of sticky tack from a friend!

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March 3rd, 2025

Planned out an unconventional racing animation in class.

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March 2nd, 2025

Listened to webgirl by Zemfira with a friend as they read through this website!

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March 1st, 2025

Got a filling at the dentist. Only 1 cavity!

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March 6th, 2025. 8:12PM ★— I've been wanting to write an entry for a WEEK NOW! Especially since I was nearing the end of the month (aaad now I don't know what to say)! And I was sort of on a roll last week, what with all my emotional fluctuations. I'm sitting in an empty classroom with 2 friends right now "doing" "homework". One is doing homework, the other is drawing Minho Choi shirtless, and I'm typing this. These months are really blowing by fast..!

After February I noticed I had two songs that really stuck out for me from that playlist, and it was similar with January. So I typed them out on the last date of those months. If I keep accidentally having "songs of the month" I'll continue adding! Also like how 1 is always in Chinese.

Later in the month, I like to organize my playlists into a good listening order. And because of this, I started viewing the playlist as having multiple "sections" or "chunks". For example, in February it was sort of like this.

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|    Beginning of the month vibe
|    1. Incredible - Madonna
|    2. You Make Me Want To Be A Man - Hikaru Utada
|    3. The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You - My Chemical Romance
|    4. Allie - Patrick Stump
|    5. One Of THOSE Nights - The Cab
|    6. I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears And None On My Fingers - Fall Out Boy
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|    Transitional
|    7. 我不小心(I Was Not Careful) - 鐵之貝克(Tizzy Bac)
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|    SO SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|    8. Devil Inside - Hikaru Utada
|    9. 很小很小(Small Small) - 魏如萱(Waa Wei)
|    10. Stay Away From My Friends - Pierce the Veil
|    11. 可憐的東西(Poor Thing) - 窦靖童(Leah Dou) ft. 魏如萱(Waa Wei)
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|    Transitional
|    12. Tearin' Up My Heart - NSYNC
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|    Kind of chillllllllllll mindset
|    13. 雲朵(Clouds) - 窦靖童(Leah Dou) ft. 九维(Jiuwei)
|    14. 不要臉(Shameless) - 陶晶瑩(Matilda Tao)
|    15. California Baby - 窦靖童(Leah Dou)
|    16. 堂堂男人(Real Man) - 容祖兒(Joey Yung)
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|    Transitional
|    17. 煙花紀(Fireworks) - 容祖兒(Joey Yung)
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|    Actually Maybe it's so over but idgaf mindset
|    18. 不開燈俱樂部(No Lights Club) - 黃宣(YELLOW)
|    19. 6, 8, 12 - Brian McKnight
|    20. 偶遇 - 现场(Encounter - Onsite) - 二手玫瑰(Second Hand Rose)
|    21. Blue - 陶晶瑩(Matilda Tao)
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If that makesss seeennnnnnseeee I thought it was interesting! I also kind of wanted to annotate my playlists (INSPIRED BY OOMF!) (hiiiiii ooomffff!!!) but that would be totally COPYING and also I don't have thaaat much to say. For the most part none of these songs really represent anything. Nonetheless, I think it's still a bit interesting how I came across some. So I'll still say that here!!

1. Said OOMF was singing a bit of it when we met up on February 1st, and they were going to make it the first song of THEIR monthly playlist BUT I BEAT THEM!!!!
4. From a blend with my emo college friend I DIDNT KNOW HE HAD AN ALBUM LIKE THIS I still need to listen to more songs off it It's so incrediiibaale though
5. Same blend!!
10. I was walking out of history lecture and I passed by a friend in my year who was wearing a Pierce the Veil Selfish Machines shirt and the shirt was kind of fire so I decided to listen to the album. Stay Away From My Friends is sooooooo gooood!! I later told that friend that I did that and it was my favourite song off the album and they were like ME TOO!
11. I was drinking while listening to the album this song is from
12. Rebecca Black boiler room set!! I keep confusing this with "I Want You Back"
16. I think I was looking through the "appears on" section on Spotify and I found this compilation and was like yeeeeeesssssssss so I found it off there. The album that this song is actually from (Ten Most Wanted) doesnt even have a photo cover on Spotify!!
18. A friend recommended!!!
19. Back At One got stuck in my head randomly so I listened to it and this played right after
20. One night I was going through 黄龄(Huang Ling)'s youtube channel for fun and then I decided to check out her Bilibili and I found this live performance she did with 二手玫瑰(Second Hand Rose)! And there's also a video of it on Youtube. I decided to check out 二手玫瑰(Second Hand Rose) and later got one of their live performances in a daylist. I listened to the song while walking home at the end of the day in the cold wet darkness and it was Perfect for that atmosphere.
21. A mirror of said OOMF's first song in their February playlist

Well that's that for that! Really excited for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and next week and next month and the month after that etc. etc. Starting to get back into doing HOMEWORK after not doing HOMEWORK for maybe 2 days and I'm starting to remember and realize why everybody is so miserable and why I as so miserable last week. Though I'm trying to find my center and inner peace and chiillllllllllll ouuuutttttt... ALSO I Am going to make this page the homepage and make the other pages the other pages laaater. Still going to be planetgob though but this is the Main Page noww. Gonna wash the dishes and take out the trash before sleeping. I hope everyone here is doing well and non euphemistic fabulous and I am wishing everyone here a goodniiiight~~~!

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February 28th, 2025

Got asked to come to church while hanging out with a lovely friend.

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March 6th, 2025. 8:04PM ★— February

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February 27th, 2025

I put a friend in an aquarium. Glub glub...

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March 6th, 2025. 7:46PM ★—

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February 26th, 2025

Called with some friends during their vacation.

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February 27th, 2025. 4:01AM ★— I did, in fact, end up doing my laundry! I ate and sat around and it was actually around 1:38AM when I convinced myself to get up and do it. I was sooootired. But I changed and made tea and listened to music and got to business. I washed my sheets too. And did the dishes while I waited for it all to dry. And then put the laundry away after it dried and made my bed and took a shower and went to sleep at 6:00AM. I got the urge to listen to Evergreen again, and then ended up listening most of 07 WINTER SMTOWN. As I stepped away from my computer, toward the laundry room, my Spotify changed from my computer to my phone. So I was forced to listen to whatever shuffled. Which was more kpop Christmas music. I always seem to listen to Christmas music at uniquely low or stressful points in my life (or just during Christmas time). I remember pulling an all nighter in middle school to build this stupid thing out of cardboard for math class, and I streamed a bunch of Wham! for no reason. Really the only thing that could cheer me up. And it's Korean this time what the hell, sure. I saved Snow Candy (K.Will, SISTAR, BOYFRIEND) and 그것뿐이에요 Just You (SUPER JUNIOR-K.R.Y) to my likes. And then I listened to TVXQ! while doing the dishes. Luckily I have this really great playlist with a bunch of their songs from before they split. I got up in the afternoon again and worked on my animation assignment again. Animating Jesper from Klaus, blushing and peeing himself, for class, for school, for my professor, for my bachelors degree. I was trying so hard not to laugh in the labs the whole time. Worked some things out with my roommate. Had some conversations with some people on some devices and also in person in real life. I'm feeling much better today (NOT KIDDING)! I was going to continue working on my animation right now but it's 4 in the morning and my head wont stop hurting. I was about to list out what I had ate today but it's a bit embarrassing. I keep drinking water hoping it will cure me but it's not working anymore. I think sleep might be the only answer. Goodniiight~

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February 25th, 2025

I scanned my Eat Sleep Game Repeat notebook.

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February 25th, 2025. 10:59PM ★— Typing this from the labs. Finished a good portion of my assignment today, though I wish I did more! But still surprising how much I was able to do. About to head back to the dorm. I didn't do laundry yesterday! It was too late! So maybe #thistime. Because it is #only11rightnow. Cried again today, earlier in the day. Now I just feel so weird. I'm hoping this week is just cursed and once it's next week the curse will be lifted and I will be free. I feel so weird and sad but also not sad. When I close my eyes vivid images of Jesper from Klaus flash before my eyelids in purple red and green. How sickening!!! I don't know what to do. I don't know what anyone wants from me. I am sorry everyone. I am so sorry. I don't know what to do. My Google Snake high score is currently 131.

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February 24th, 2025

I lent my roommate a t-shirt.

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February 25th, 2025. 1:23AM ★— Uploading 2 previous logs that I wasn't going to post because I'm writing a third one now, and 3 uncomfortable strange logs are better than 1 and 0! Said that I was feeling better yesterday and then a couple hours later ended up crying myself to sleep and this time I know the reason why but I wont say. Cried again today (or yesterday, I suppose) out of stress, 3 hours before I aimed to submit an assignment. Both times alone. So nobody knows this except my dear reader who I seem to be holding hostage in this paragraph. I feel quite okay now though. Evil almost. I'm sad and then I'm evil and then I'm sad and then I'm giddy. Maybe it's not my period, maybe I do need a therapist. I think I just need to start doing my homework faster. Hopefully doing laundry tonight after I finish eating this delicious pasta my roommate made. Excited to meet with a friend this Friday. This is my second reading week at college and my first reading week AT college. Everything is darker and emptier, and I'm not just being dramatic this time. The automatic lights in the classrooms and hallways turn off faster and earlier, and there's a lot less people of course. But the on campus Tim Hortons is surprisingly open! The dorm is dark too. I don't know if they used to light up the entrance outside or something, but as I was walking back the difference was clear. It's probably a combination of that and people leaving residence. Also does not help that I have been getting up at around 3pm and the sun sets at 5pm. So dark! So unfortunate and evil and so ridiculous. It was 8 degrees today though. I cannot wait to walk again during the Spring and Summer months. My Google Snake high score is currently 122.

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February 23rd, 2025

A friend came to visit campus with a fabulous (non-euphemistic) notebook sticker!

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February 24th, 2025. 12:25AM ★— Another instance of imagining a log and then sitting down and then not knowing what to write...! I'm waiting for my food to reheat right now. I was "working" on an essay due tonight but at some point I had to let go of the idea of handing it in on time. #worthit though (the reason that it's late). But seriously after I eat this I'm gonna seriously lock in I swear. I have newfound hope and motivation for my assignments. Which I imagine will last me about 1 day once I realize what it's like actually sitting down and working on them. Feeling less depressed recently and I think it's because my period is ending. Isn't it great how I can just point to this as an explanation for all my emotional fluctuations to avoid digging any deeper into what I actually think and feel. But seriously, what else could it be! #yaaaayyyyyy. Still mildly upsetting that I will be spending my reading week actually doing homework. Buuummer. My mom texted me about my summer job that I don't want to do. I need to start applying to libraries again. But last time I tried to do it on the site it didn't work for some reason! It just didn't go through! But that was about 3 months ago. And I've been too scared to check back since. But if I don't do it soon... Also thinking back to the alcohol I had last week. Long story that my singular reader already knows about, but I've had some left over soju sitting in my dorm for about 2 months now, and I was so miserable last week that I ended up finishing it! I've never had the urge to drink during the school year because I've been feeling quite alright and I'm also so so busy. But really it was so fun and I want to buy more and I want to drink more. I want to drink and forget and have fuuuuuuun! Hopefully while still completing my work if that is possible. But it's quite difficult to get soju in my current living conditions so I will just have to wait until a bit later.

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February 22nd, 2025

Watched Alien (1979) for my Futuristic Narritaves elective.

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February 21st, 2025

Showstopping group karaoke performance of the Tokyo Ghoul opening "Unravel", among various others.

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February 20th, 2025

My best friend sent me a barrage of our old bitmoji pics. This one speaks volumes.

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February 23rd, 2025. 3:24AM ★—

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February 19th, 2025

The first of many SHINee music video watch parties.

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February 18th, 2025

Started and finished and submitted my shipwrecked storyboarding assignment. Goodbye forever!

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February 17th, 2025

Bumped into our neighbour for the first time! After listening to our music, they recommended "Wax Wings" by Periphery.

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February 16th, 2025

Met with a friend 2 days before their vacation.

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February 15th, 2025

Happy National Stellizabeth Day!!!

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February 14th, 2025

I got a candy gram from a friend for Valentine's day!

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February 13th, 2025

I drew an anthropomorphic leaf ageing for class.

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February 12th, 2025

We got kicked off campus 9 hours early today because of the snow!

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February 11th, 2025

I played Google Snake.

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February 10th, 2025

My microchip petri dish embreyo smoking a blunt, for class.

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February 11th, 2025. 1:20AM ★—

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February 9th, 2025

I bought two large iced capps! I'm getting so addicted.

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February 8th, 2025

I showed up to extra life drawing late, and everyone left early! Empty donkeys everywhere...

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February 7th, 2025

I watched Brokeback Mountain with some friends. SOOOOO SAD!!!!!!

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February 6th, 2025

I drew a fish reading a book under a willow tree.

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February 5th, 2025

I went to Walmart and bought toilet paper (among other things).

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February 4th, 2025

My roommate and I drew each other dying.

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February 3rd, 2025

Watched Begone Dull Care (1949) in animation history. It means so much to me!

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February 2nd, 2025

Finished watching Mars Attack! (1996) for my Futuristic Narritaves elective (INSANE).

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February 1st, 2025

Feeling: fabulous (euphemism)

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February 5th, 2025. 3:46PM ★— Writing this as I wait for the bus to Walmart. I never have time to write entries at the end of the day!! So perhaps I should opt for these small in between moments where I simply have nothing better to do. But I'm not such a big fan of typing in the Samsung notes app (these days)...

Anyway, to do some post month reflection, emoji playlist business is going well so far! Buuuut there are some evil qualms...

1. There are some sequences that are just not as aeshetic as others, unfortunately!

2. My computer doesn't have as many emojis as my phone!! (they get turned into line emoticons). Pretty okay sometimes, but the coffin was DISAPPOINTING (January 29th used to be a coffin (i died)).

3. Also don't know when I'm gonna start doing repeats. I've been trying to avoid it but I know it's coming one day!

4. Sometimes, I really just don't know! I started typing these out during winter break, when my life was superbly thrilling. Though I knew once I got to school, it would be a bit more tricky to pick interesting emojis. Being at art school helps though. I try to choose things that are more specific to the day rather than what I mostly did to avoid repeats. Ex. My roommate makes really good pasta. Even though it's so so delicious and maybe even the highlight of my day, they'll probably make it again another day. Ex. I have a friend that I like to go on comically long walks with whenever we meet up (because what else can you do?), but I wouldn't just put a walking emoji because we do that every time! etc. etc. Although if it's ever reeaaallly reaaallly relevant, I'll put it!

5. First and last emojis of the month get SERIOUS! (because they're the title of the playlists). Felt influenced on January 31st to make it a mailbox because the white of the mail matched the white of the mask on the masked emoji. Curse my artistic soul. One of my favourite emojis I could've saved for a more mailful occassion. Alas.

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January 31th, 2025

My roommate is spreading propaganda about animating Jesper from Klaus for our head turn assignment and it's working! #JESPERNATION!!!

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March 6th, 2025. 8:00PM ★— January

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January 30th, 2025

My roommate bought a Sheridan moose keychain from the school bookstore.

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January 29th, 2025

Woke up and went back to sleep and woke up and went back to sleep and started working at 9pm.

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January 28th, 2025

My roommate bought me green tea because they felt bad for borrowing my laptop! Well I'm not complaining...

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January 27th, 2025

Animation history was cancelled! So I went through the lecture with some friends and watched an excerpt from Fantasia (1940).

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January 26th, 2025

Finished reading Craphound by Cory Doctorow for my Futuristic Narritaves elective.

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January 25th, 2025

Watched Look Back with some friends. Gaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

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January 26th, 2025. 3:08AM ★— Had a fun couple of days since my last entry; going places and doing things (things = drawing). Still working on my walk cycle. Yeah okay we get it. Have been recieving so much help from friends! #ittakesavillage. Went to a cafe on Friday and to the bar/diner across the street today. YUUUUM! Was depressed for a bit about the state of my hair (see: January 23rd (sheer panic)) but I'm starting to get over it (not). Started wearing makeup again too. I just don't know anymore! #Whatever. My roommate has been playing the Rebbeca Black boiler room set again while we work and now I Want You Back by NSYNC is stuck in my head. Beueue euoe oo. Have to do a quiz for my elective tomorrow (today) so hopefully I don't forget that too. I'm just saying a bunch of random things and none of them are connected to each other. I don't know! Hey guys (guy)! Bye guy.

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January 24th, 2025

Bumped into a friend in the elevator and recieved a generous donation of mac and cheese! SO GOOD.

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January 23rd, 2025

In the absence of a straightener, I tried styling my hair with 2 side clips and a middle part. There was lots of backlash.

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January 22nd, 2025

Sat in for my friends' animation class and watched Monsters University while working.

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January 22nd, 2025. 11:11PM ★— It was my first time sitting in a class time slot that wasn't mine! Apparently that's just something you can do here (depending on the teacher). I wanted to show her progress of my walk cycle before my Friday class. It's going not bad so far! BUT IM STILL SO SCARED IT'LL BE UGLY prayers appreciated. It also happened to be the animation class 2 of my oomfs are in, which I only realized once I was waiting outside the door at 2:00pm! Yaaaaaaayy! Still feel pretty on top of things even though I'm technically secretly really not, but we'll see. Hoping to start a personal piece soon as well so I can complete it before the end of January... And blah blah blah. Listening to MCR right now. Life is so nothing. Life is so burger. 2nd semester is a lot less excruciatingly lonely than the 1st! But I hope something exciting happens in my life again soon. I can only draw for so long. Boooooooriiiiiinnngggg!

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January 21st, 2025

My roommate broke our butter dish while making the best salmon ever.

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January 20th, 2025

My roommate and I made tonkatsu for the first time! It was sooooo goooodddd!!!!

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January 21st, 2025. 1:35AM ★— My first short entry aside from a small emoji description. I want to start writing real entries under these but I simply never have the time! It's 1 in the morning right now and I still have to shower. Alas, this will STILL have to be brief. I just wanted to talk about cpop a bit. A bit of background (although my reader(s?) already know), I've been getting into cpop since August 2024 and it's seriously taken over my Spotify as of late. I'm always looking for new songs that have a combination of good singing, good chord progressions, and good production (code for: songs I subjectively like)! I used to actively seek out more upbeat and electronic songs, but nowadays I'm getting really into the ballads. I've always loved a good ballad, but I'm seriously feeling the emotions right now! (I'm just gonna be copy pasting the names I don't actually know Chinese) One of my favourites is 小城女孩(Small Town Girl) by 祁紫檀(Qi Zitan) — I don't know if it really counts as a ballad but OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SONG! I've been listening to 我對不起我(Sorry For Myself) by 田馥甄(Hebe Tien) this month and its soooooo sad. The chords are a bit boring to me but it's soooo sad I can't help but listen. Same with 你今天要走(You Have To Leave Today) by 葉蒨文(Sally Yeh). It's the way she sings it and the violin that makes it SO SAD. I could keep listing songs but I'll hold back. The reason I'm writing all this right now at this very moment on this Tuesday morning is to express my love for 楊乃文(Naiwen Yang)'s 1997 album One. I think it's more rock than pop really, which makes me want to discover more Chinese rock (...crock...... ? ..) as well. But such a great album! My favourite songs are 星星堆滿天(Stars) and 不要說出去(Don't Say Go Out), especially the live versions! I'm so drawn to this album because when I listen to it, it gives me this immense feeling of leaving the past behind. Leaving past sadness in the past, leaving past happiness in the past, and the sheer melancholy of just moving forward. Wow! Well that's all I really wanted to say (since I've been thinking about it for DAYS (but have TRAPPED (in my COLLEGE ENCLOSURE))). I will probably come back... HOPEFULLY...In the future, and add some more details about the days of January! To #remember (especially today, with our TONKATSU JOURNEY). Let's count this as the first cute tiny baby step.

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January 19th, 2025

I designed a character for my walk cycle! They're wearing a looong scarf.

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January 21st, 2025. 9:14PM ★—



This the character I'm doing for my walk cycle assignment! Like many students in the past, I was inspired by the current weather... Today I made some adjustments for the actual assignment (more 3 dimensional for animation, more 3/4 pose, different persepctive).



I think I might need to get rid of the looong scarf! Because it would be difficult to animate in that perspective and I don't really need it anyway. Also apparently on the assignment sheet it says the character needs to be 4-5 heads tall! #oops. But I don't want to change it now because it's so cute... I didn't get a chance to converse with my teacher about the design because I was sick last class (and also didn't have it drawn). Just gonna make an animation attempt tonight and show her tomorrow before it's due friday. Have never successfully animated something in my entire life but I want this one to be good and if it's not I will be SO DISTRAUGHT!

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January 18th, 2025

I finished my Pink Panther inbetweening assignment (close enough to a panther emoji).

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January 17th, 2025

I threw up while disposing of spoiled milk.

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January 16th, 2025

I did the Sheridan bone test...

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January 15th, 2025

I downloaded Xiaohongshu in my quest for more cpop!

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January 14th, 2025

Watched my roommate get scammed and refunded $8 from our school vending machine.

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January 13th, 2025

Visited the second year lab with some friends and took turns trying to throw a tangerine into a cardboard box.

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January 12th, 2025

Had some particular discussions about a particular singer while standing in a particularly asmr-esque sculpture.

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January 11th, 2025

Played pool for the first time; still don't get it.

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January 10th, 2025

Watched Jennifer's Body with some friends. 1 million stars.

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January 9th, 2025

Went to Figaro Coffee House for the first time and had THE MOST AMAZING italian sandwhich.

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January 8th, 2025

Began the construction of a long awaited Drake cardboard cutout (it's a long story...)

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January 7th, 2025

My best friend's birthday! Happy birthday Stella!

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January 6th, 2025

We watched Gertie the Dinosaur in our first animation history lecture.

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January 5th, 2025

I went to a new figure drawing place in Toronto called AGA Arts, and I was pleasantly surprised by the cute little house it was hosted in.

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January 4th, 2025

I watched Squid Game season 2.

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January 3rd, 2025

I tried GAMBLING for the first time! I lost all my money.

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January 2nd, 2025

I tried pottery for the first time! (I made a bowl though, not a pot.)

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January 1st, 2025

I was sooooooooooooo sick the whooooooooooooole day!

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